a girl made me lick her
I have never told this to anyone, and I almost forgot it happened until about 5 months ago, when I accidentally switched on a xxx-channel, and saw these people doing the same, and now I just keep thinking about it, but I really want to forget, I feel like I wanna die, Why did I do it?!*!*!
So, you're probably thinking what am I talking about so ok here it is
When I was about 13 years old I got drunk at a party, then 2 other girls came (I'm a girl) and took me with and locked us in the bathroom, they took off their pans and told me to lick them down-there, I refused, but well I was kind of drunk, and they told me that they would destroy the world if I won't do that, so I did...When I woke up in the morning and remembered that, I went to the bathroom and hurled and felt so dirty. I wanted to kkill myself then, but I finally accepted that and forgot it, but now it just keeps popping up, and it's even more horrific. I want to turn back time, or erase it from my mind, I wanted aliens to abduct me so they could make me forget (haha silly , I know), but I just feel so miserable, I can't live a normal life, I can't do anything. I can't even talk in my native language, because every word reminds me of it, but sadly I still live in my homeland. Help meeeeee pleaseeee!!!!!!!