As a kid I had a very strong urge to put our housecat inside a microwave and switch it on. It wasn't anger or frustration. I didn't dislike cats either. It was just a calm curiosity and desire. And I never acted on it. I was 8 years old then.
One night, I took my cat... held it in my arms... petted it so it would feel comfortable.. and I took it outside for a short walk.... And my cat was a little timid at first but then I put him on the ground, and he started chewing on the grass. A few moments later, I took my hand, put it under his belly and...................... picked him up and came back inside. He seemed quite pleased with the trip. This was a few hours ago
Both paragraphs are true but second one isnt a confession. I wrote it just to freak someone out haha. Don't worry I'd hurt myself before I hurt an animal, but I always judged myself for having that urge as a kid.
lol, You sonuva. You had me going. Hahah.
I had a horrible imagination when I was a kid. I imagined taking an axe to my cat, whom I loved dearly, and it made me cry. I was 7. Man, kids are sadistic. lol.
I still feel very sad when I imagine horrible things. I feel compassion and understanding where others can't, because I live in the feelings of my imagination and my memories. It was very hard for me to compute as a child, but I've learned to separate my ego from the process and connect my humanity.
Should I elaborate or do you catch what I'm saying?
I get what you mean but you've piqued by interest and curiosity to want to hear specific examples. Don't worry, you don't need to. I have a solution *sticks you in the microwave*
Well, in other words I take my own feelings outside of a scenario so that I can understand the person. People always add their feelings to perspective, which limits their understanding on about everything. If you want to learn something, you have to remove your feelings until you go through the scenario. Then you can develop true feelings about that scenario.
For example, pedophilia. If anyone announced they were a pedophile, they would be buried alived- but what would you make of someone who never acted on it? Who refuse to be around children, can't live with themselves and they burn themselves or something horrible every time they start to think of it? What if you learned that they shouted it out because they felt they should be punished and they never told you this side of the story?
I used to imagine what kind of sick people could do this thing and that until I started separating my ego and connecting my compassion. Just to give an example.
So basically you put yourself in someone elses shoes. Cool. I've witnessed some elders incapable of doing that. Then again, old dog - new tricks. So it's not really their fault. More power to you though, for thinking in different angles, always a very useful and fruitful mental tool.
Your example reminds me of a post a while ago where a pedophile confessed his urges, his decision to never act on it, and wanted people's opinions. Couldn't find it to link you to it but it was an interesting read for sure
What if, in your example, the person did act on his pedophilic urges, does the identical feeling of disgust return? Would you be sick about it to the same intensity?
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As a kid I had a very strong urge to put our housecat inside a microwave and switch it on. It wasn't anger or frustration. I didn't dislike cats either. It was just a calm curiosity and desire. And I never acted on it. I was 8 years old then.
One night, I took my cat... held it in my arms... petted it so it would feel comfortable.. and I took it outside for a short walk.... And my cat was a little timid at first but then I put him on the ground, and he started chewing on the grass. A few moments later, I took my hand, put it under his belly and...................... picked him up and came back inside. He seemed quite pleased with the trip. This was a few hours ago
Both paragraphs are true but second one isnt a confession. I wrote it just to freak someone out haha. Don't worry I'd hurt myself before I hurt an animal, but I always judged myself for having that urge as a kid.
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Wtf!! As I read this I was like, this mothafucka better not have hurt or killed the cat!!
lol, You sonuva. You had me going. Hahah.
I had a horrible imagination when I was a kid. I imagined taking an axe to my cat, whom I loved dearly, and it made me cry. I was 7. Man, kids are sadistic. lol.
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I completely agree, I was a very twisted kid. How do you think your "horrible imagination" influenced the adult version of you?
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I still feel very sad when I imagine horrible things. I feel compassion and understanding where others can't, because I live in the feelings of my imagination and my memories. It was very hard for me to compute as a child, but I've learned to separate my ego from the process and connect my humanity.
Should I elaborate or do you catch what I'm saying?
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I get what you mean but you've piqued by interest and curiosity to want to hear specific examples. Don't worry, you don't need to. I have a solution *sticks you in the microwave*
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Well, in other words I take my own feelings outside of a scenario so that I can understand the person. People always add their feelings to perspective, which limits their understanding on about everything. If you want to learn something, you have to remove your feelings until you go through the scenario. Then you can develop true feelings about that scenario.
For example, pedophilia. If anyone announced they were a pedophile, they would be buried alived- but what would you make of someone who never acted on it? Who refuse to be around children, can't live with themselves and they burn themselves or something horrible every time they start to think of it? What if you learned that they shouted it out because they felt they should be punished and they never told you this side of the story?
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So basically you put yourself in someone elses shoes. Cool. I've witnessed some elders incapable of doing that. Then again, old dog - new tricks. So it's not really their fault. More power to you though, for thinking in different angles, always a very useful and fruitful mental tool.
Your example reminds me of a post a while ago where a pedophile confessed his urges, his decision to never act on it, and wanted people's opinions. Couldn't find it to link you to it but it was an interesting read for sure
What if, in your example, the person did act on his pedophilic urges, does the identical feeling of disgust return? Would you be sick about it to the same intensity?