I never thought I would grow up. I thought it was impossible. I'm not lying, I really thought I was going to b a kid forever. When I turned 18 I still wasn't trying to grow up. I cried so hard and I was holding on to my childhood. Everyone thought I was so weird. It wasn't until my mother started to try and control me which is something she never did before and one day I packed my bags and left unexpectedly (it was totally not like me) and had no where to go. Thats when I learned I can finally cuss my parents out and they can't say sh** about it. They couldn't call me a kid anymore or use the line "she think she grown". I was such a good girl, I was scared to do anything wrong and even when I did do things wrong I would beat myself up about it for weeks. But once I realized I was an adult I felt so free!!!!! It feels like a weight have been lifted off my shoulders. It feels like I finally am not locked in chains or held restricted. This is the most fun I have ever had n my entire life. When I think about my childhood I start to freak out. When I think about how trapped I was and how I had to follow stupid a** rules that made absolute no sense I feel so scared. I even have nightmares about my childhood and waking up being a kid again with no control over my own life. I think if I woke up a kid again and realized this was all a dream I think I would either commit suicide or murder my parents. I will never go through that again! I guess I would feel different if I was one of those kids with a happy, loving, fun childhood but I am not. I know for a fact I miss how magically the world looked when I was a kid and I wish I had that back but other then that I love being an adult and each day is better then the next.
Would you rather be a kid or an adult?
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I never thought I would grow up. I thought it was impossible. I'm not lying, I really thought I was going to b a kid forever. When I turned 18 I still wasn't trying to grow up. I cried so hard and I was holding on to my childhood. Everyone thought I was so weird. It wasn't until my mother started to try and control me which is something she never did before and one day I packed my bags and left unexpectedly (it was totally not like me) and had no where to go. Thats when I learned I can finally cuss my parents out and they can't say sh** about it. They couldn't call me a kid anymore or use the line "she think she grown". I was such a good girl, I was scared to do anything wrong and even when I did do things wrong I would beat myself up about it for weeks. But once I realized I was an adult I felt so free!!!!! It feels like a weight have been lifted off my shoulders. It feels like I finally am not locked in chains or held restricted. This is the most fun I have ever had n my entire life. When I think about my childhood I start to freak out. When I think about how trapped I was and how I had to follow stupid a** rules that made absolute no sense I feel so scared. I even have nightmares about my childhood and waking up being a kid again with no control over my own life. I think if I woke up a kid again and realized this was all a dream I think I would either commit suicide or murder my parents. I will never go through that again! I guess I would feel different if I was one of those kids with a happy, loving, fun childhood but I am not. I know for a fact I miss how magically the world looked when I was a kid and I wish I had that back but other then that I love being an adult and each day is better then the next.