Would you consider me selfish?

So I want to start out by saying I don’t HATE any of the people I mention, but I think they can be annoying at times. I’m a 20 year old guy, the youngest family member in my house and the only male, besides our new puppy who I thought I would love a lot more than I currently do. I live with a mom, two sisters, and a grandma.

Now, I recently posted on here about how taking care of others is just not in my nature. It gets annoying though when I have to hear everyone complain about their problems that I have no control over. It’s like hearing a bunch of people complain to each other, but it’s problems that you have absolutely no way of contributing, and you kinda want to help them but you know you can’t. It gets to a point where I’m scared to tell my mom that I have a problem because I feel like I’m just adding to a list of problems for her (I told her exactly that recently and luckily she said I shouldn’t feel that way).

Here’s my ideal, at least for the present: I would love to live by myself, in a house where I can take all my books and DVDs I’ve collected and focus on my writing with no interruptions. If it works out and I make enough money off of it, I can help out my family financially if they need it, but not do EVERYTHING for them (my sisters have even told me that they hope I get successful so I can help them). Maybe they can visit from time to time, but to be BRUTALLY honest I’m tired of living with them.

The problem though is I’ve spent way too much time focusing on how dangerous driving is, how unfair many age restrictions are, etc. plus issues with independence and a whole multitude of things. I would just love to be by myself and not have to worry about anyone but myself. I’ll help whenever I’m able, but I won’t be able to all the time, even if everything works out!