Worst trip of my life on thc

I'm not a regular smoking guy. I smoke very little just to have fun with friends and shit and it's rare for me to smoke. But one time my friend bought me these thc powder which I thought i would take it. Every little package contains 10 mg or thc. I didn't know how much was too much or not. (Ps I haven't smoked in like 3 months at that time) 10 mg sounded like little to me. I wasn't thinking clearly. So I went ahead and pour 40mg on water and shake the water bottle. I drank it and I wouldn't feel anything in like the first 30 minutes so I drank the whole thing. After that, in a hour I was gone. I stopped breathing, I was frozen, I do remember seeing that I just fell and hit my head hard. After that I started being extremely paranoid like I've never in my life has been. It would be so hard to get out of it. I was stuck in my head and it was impossible for me to get out it. I tried to think of something good but like I would just think of the letter and not the meaning of it. During the "overdose" whenever I would move it would repeat over and over and over again. Almost feels like there is no ending. If I were to lift my hands up it would repeat over and over again non stop. So yeah I ended up in the hospital just to make this shorter. I got home from the hospital, felt better but I was thinking what if this is just a dream, I kept freaking out, I was being paranoid but a couple days later those feelings were gone. Not until august 20th I started having those thoughts and man it really did hit me so hard that I thought I overdose again although I haven't done any drugs after I overdose and when I over dose was in July 16th. I started freaking out and started being paranoid. I literally felt like if I was on drugs. Everything would start moving, I would start being extremely paranoid, I would freeze, I would stop breathing, and all that. It feels like if you're are being sent to hell. Literally feels like the devil is just taking your soul. And now I have those episodes almost everyday. I used to be an outgoing guy, happy, motivated guy to this extremely paranoid person. Can anyone else relate? I feel like I'm the only one and I'm scared of that. Before I overdose I used to not be scared of anything. Now I'm extremely delusional. For example ( I know it sounds pathetic but) one day I was walking outside and It was windy and I felt like the wind was going to take me. I feel like anything can happen in my mind.