why cant i find the right friends

I know the feeling of just being a tagalong. It was as if some people in our group were more valued than others. I was oftentimes the last to know about something they were planning and too late to join. As if I was always an afterthought.

They would often exclude me from gossip as well. They may be talking about someone or something that was happening And when I asked what they what they were talking about they often refused to tell me. They said they didn't want to spread gossip despite the fact that they were speeding it amongst themselves and I was probably least likely to tell anyone. I just wanted to know what was going on in my circle of friends.

This did get better towards the end of my school days. And at sixform I had a different circle of friend entirely and I seemed to fit in there pretty well.

Nowadays I am with yet another totally different set of friends and although I can sometimes feel a bit like I used to at school on the whole thing are better.