Why can't i stop...
Okay, so I have an amazing boyfriend. Best I've ever had really, and I don't know what it would be like if I didn't have him around. He was my best friend and everything before we started dating. But anyway, the point is, there's this other guy at school, he's black, and really cute. One of the cutest black guys I've ever seen. He's kind of like this creamy color its really nice... so anyway, I can't stop keeping a tag on him like when I see him and thinking about him. But the thing is, I don't know him at all. I've sat by him before and he's quiet, like me, and I've heard he's really sweet. And he's got these amazing green eyes with some other color, I haven't been able to identify what it is yet, I try not to look at him, don't wanna freak him out. I also feel really bad that I think about him at all because I have a boyfriend who treats me so well. It would kill him if he knew this, which is why I just try to push him out of my head, but sometimes, I can't. And sometimes I feel like my thoughts are my thoughts, and I'm free to think what I want, so why not? And I also feel like if I don't think about him I'm completely shutting out my options... but the thing is I know thats what I need to be doing. So anyway, when I like someone I don't usually dream about them unless I really like them and I've already dreamt about him two nights in a row, maybe three. And to me, thats alot. So, ignore him? Talk to him, see what happens? Am I a horrible person? Please write whatever you think I don't care how much you insult me, I think I need it. And I desperately need feedback. Oh and as a side note I think one of the reasons thats making me like him so much it because he's black (I'm white) and I'm a very curious person, I've never dated a black guy before