I've had the same problem with women and most people because of my autism. I seem to do alright with girls who also have a mental disability sometimes. Still not great at it but I don't care about relationships or sex anymore. Still would like to do something with life. Can't get a job or really fit into society even though I have put a lot of effort into it I am still told I am just not trying. I've played in bands and have a savant ability with music and playing piano. Has never made me any money and even if I invest my whole year into it I only lose everything which has happened several times. When I try to earn money doing something I often find myself having to pay to do something and never earning anything. I can't get approved to live anywhere and don't understand how to fill out paperwork. I am stuck living with my mother and am in my 30's and I hate living with her, and contemplate I would rather be homeless. I don't do drugs or and don't even drink or smoke anymore. I have spent my life trying to get jobs, girlfriends, shows for music, school, actually trying to do things only to be told I do not try when I see others who don't try and get things I would like to get. I actually seem to put more effort into things than most people. I don't even like telling people about effort I put into things because they usually still think I am not trying. That's why a lot of people with autism eventually kill themselves or go on a murder spree when they eventually snap.
I actually don't even like getting sympathy for it which is why I don't usually express the things that suck about autism, but I share insight so other people understand autism a bit better as it can be very socially disabling without most people even noticing you have a disability.
Yes, that makes sense. People are becoming a little more aware now but there is still a big gap between people who are autistic and people who are not, in terms of understanding and relating to each other. I have read a few good books written by people who have autism, sharing their experience. Those have been helpful and eye opening to me. It's too bad more employers etc. don't read them.
Just wish life wasn't so hard for so many people and that it would be easier to have what we think we need/want.
For what it's worth I'm a woman and you seem really cool. Even I have difficulty just making friends with other women (in fact I've never been able to yet). I have similar goals but with illustration rather than music. I just don't try at all most of the time because it seems extremely difficult to successfully get into the arts.
Thanks. It's good to hear encouragement. I've been able to make friends but have trouble with the majority of people. I've been a bit discouraged lately because I spent a couple years being lazy after feeling I wasted my effort into stuff. The last few months I have been attempting to not being lazy again and have quit drinking and smoking and have been looking for a job and a house to rent and it's kind of depressing because I was happier not doing anything and am having the same problems again that I did before and previously I was chain smoking to self medicate my mood and thoughts, and am trying to do it on my own. It's difficult because I often want to give up, but I still haven't even when I really feel like it. I never tell people how I feel in real life so I use the internet. I've noticed when people open up to others how they feel they usually reject them by either saying they don't really feel that way and are saying it to manipulate them, or they just think you are crazy and avoid you. It seems always one of the two, so I like to spend a lot of time isolating myself as I don't really like people other than a few people I like to be around but still don't really talk to about myself.
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I've had the same problem with women and most people because of my autism. I seem to do alright with girls who also have a mental disability sometimes. Still not great at it but I don't care about relationships or sex anymore. Still would like to do something with life. Can't get a job or really fit into society even though I have put a lot of effort into it I am still told I am just not trying. I've played in bands and have a savant ability with music and playing piano. Has never made me any money and even if I invest my whole year into it I only lose everything which has happened several times. When I try to earn money doing something I often find myself having to pay to do something and never earning anything. I can't get approved to live anywhere and don't understand how to fill out paperwork. I am stuck living with my mother and am in my 30's and I hate living with her, and contemplate I would rather be homeless. I don't do drugs or and don't even drink or smoke anymore. I have spent my life trying to get jobs, girlfriends, shows for music, school, actually trying to do things only to be told I do not try when I see others who don't try and get things I would like to get. I actually seem to put more effort into things than most people. I don't even like telling people about effort I put into things because they usually still think I am not trying. That's why a lot of people with autism eventually kill themselves or go on a murder spree when they eventually snap.
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I actually don't even like getting sympathy for it which is why I don't usually express the things that suck about autism, but I share insight so other people understand autism a bit better as it can be very socially disabling without most people even noticing you have a disability.
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Yes, that makes sense. People are becoming a little more aware now but there is still a big gap between people who are autistic and people who are not, in terms of understanding and relating to each other. I have read a few good books written by people who have autism, sharing their experience. Those have been helpful and eye opening to me. It's too bad more employers etc. don't read them.
Just wish life wasn't so hard for so many people and that it would be easier to have what we think we need/want.
For what it's worth I'm a woman and you seem really cool. Even I have difficulty just making friends with other women (in fact I've never been able to yet). I have similar goals but with illustration rather than music. I just don't try at all most of the time because it seems extremely difficult to successfully get into the arts.
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Thanks. It's good to hear encouragement. I've been able to make friends but have trouble with the majority of people. I've been a bit discouraged lately because I spent a couple years being lazy after feeling I wasted my effort into stuff. The last few months I have been attempting to not being lazy again and have quit drinking and smoking and have been looking for a job and a house to rent and it's kind of depressing because I was happier not doing anything and am having the same problems again that I did before and previously I was chain smoking to self medicate my mood and thoughts, and am trying to do it on my own. It's difficult because I often want to give up, but I still haven't even when I really feel like it. I never tell people how I feel in real life so I use the internet. I've noticed when people open up to others how they feel they usually reject them by either saying they don't really feel that way and are saying it to manipulate them, or they just think you are crazy and avoid you. It seems always one of the two, so I like to spend a lot of time isolating myself as I don't really like people other than a few people I like to be around but still don't really talk to about myself.