What's your psychiatric diagnosis?

Now you sound like me, those negative feedback loops keep me from talking to a lot of people

It's hard for me too, but I rationalize it like, yes I want to be friends with them (which is why I still occasionally get inspiration to talk to them), but it ended and it was awkward at best when we tried, and one of my mantras is "the best way to win is to not play"

I kinda accept that it's over, and use those deep seeded attachments as a reminder not to be whatever I feel like caused the rift

And hey, I doubt she's fully forgotten you, even if she's acting like it