"In control of my life", i guess (but always with nagging anxieties of things i've done wrong), the problem is it doesn't really feel like my life. I'm just doing what I'm supposed to... because it would be a terrible waste otherwise... i have no strong interests in this world, i am thankful for life because i know it could be worse, but i just can't seem to feel much of anything in reality... so i might as well use my existence to serve those capable and deserving of happiness... it's all just an act until i can get home and go to sleep... heh
What is your life like at this point?
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"In control of my life", i guess (but always with nagging anxieties of things i've done wrong), the problem is it doesn't really feel like my life. I'm just doing what I'm supposed to... because it would be a terrible waste otherwise... i have no strong interests in this world, i am thankful for life because i know it could be worse, but i just can't seem to feel much of anything in reality... so i might as well use my existence to serve those capable and deserving of happiness... it's all just an act until i can get home and go to sleep... heh