What is this?

Alright, when I was a young kid in elementary school I would sometimes here my name being whispered. When I looked around though, no one would be trying to get my attention or anything. I told my mom and she said I probably just misheard something. So life went on. I had an imaginary friend around that time, but I knew she was imaginary. However, her sole purpose was to have little mundane competitions with me. Like, 'who can make it into the living room the fastest'. The game was, if I ever lost she would kill me.

Ah-hem anyway at one point I grew out of that. But now other things are happening. It started out small. I would always have two opinions on /everything/. Only two. And they both followed very different ways of thinking. Through the years these two ways of thinking split apart more and more, and now it's like I have two seperate minds. One is fairly 'normal', is a bit of a pessimist in most situation yet sees the beauty in everything and wants to live a simple and conservative life. The other is a lot darker, has fantasies of killing people, wants to live life the way it pleases and is pretty optimistic about things. They never really conversed with each other... just went back and forth from the drivers seat. I like both of them, because well both of them are me. But today was the weirdest thing - on my way home I actually had a conversation between them. Out loud - I was alone, no one could here. I was both of them, talking to myself, but at the same time two different people if that makes sense.

What is this becoming? I don't feel it's serious enough to see a doctor, I mean, it's just me...

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  • Avant-Garde

    It could be the Paranormal. I don't think that this is psychosis related.

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  • Avant-Garde

    Multiple-Personality Disorder and possible Schizophrenia. I really think you should see a doctor.

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  • sweetheart7

    I think that seeing a doctor would be in your best interest. Good luck

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  • I have that same feeling. Being two people. It's kind of like when you look in the mirror and think things in your head with the word "you." Like saying "You don't look too good" to yourself in the mirror.
    I think it's relatively normal, but it shouldn't be so severe. I've thought about myself having a "listening" part and a "thinking" part. One part listens and judges, and the other does the thinking and actions.
    Sound familiar at all?

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  • Thanks guys... I've been thinking of seeing a therapist, but I don't know... It's really expensive - like $50 a session and it's not like I'm in a financially high place right now...
    But, besides, I don't want to get rid of either of them. I need both of them to be 'balanced'. The only thing the 'normal' one has going is the relative normalcy. But that one is pretty mean and rude and I feel like shit when I am her. The 'bad' one is happy and nice to people. The only thing with that one is I have the urges to brutally maim people.
    @ thundercat: You're a really stupid person, arn't you?

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    • justanormalgirl

      Nice try anti-condom girl, but i call BS

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  • thundercat

    Excuse me, but it seems to me just a writing practice following the very transited path of Stephen King. Nice trying.

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  • speedingximports

    split personality disorder is extremely rare, but if you are indeed telling the truth then you should consult a doctor. Jen is correct in saying that it can worsen, and without help most people that experience this disorder do not fare well. get help. the sooner you do the better it will be for you.

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  • wannarocktheworld

    have u watched jim carrey's "me myself and irene" movie?

    u got split personality disorder mate...
    maybe ocd too
    the other personality is the master(the darker one) and thats the ocd implementing personality
    the other softer pessimist thats u actually is the slave

    better goto a doctor...ppl with this shit usually lose their minds in early 50s
    seriousl,u should consult a psychologist or someone for analysing this shit

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  • Jen118584

    Hello, Sybil? Sounds like you may have split personality disorder, which can become very serious and worsen over time, as it seems to be doing with you, until you cannot lead a normal life. I know you want to think it's normal, but it is not normal. Eventually a third "opinion" could emerge and it can be very distracting and confusing. Everyone has wavering opinions at times, that is the human condition. But to acknowledge the existence of two OTHER entities within your mind is another story entirely. Yes, two others, because the "you" that ackowledges that the other two exist is the third. I'm being serious when I say SEE A DOCTOR. You're not alone in this, and there is help out there.

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  • teena

    this is really very strange thing.coz i am shocked after reading this.....well but i think its not your fault at all.this happens coz of opposite sex offcourse............but i think you should stop immidiately all this thinhgs forever and do not disclose this to anyone........

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  • JadedInkStains

    That sounds like split personality or something, but hey if you can lead a simple life and deal with it then right on. Try writing some stories or something using your darker side.

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