What can i do?

Mum and I haven't ever got along. It's as bad as when she will physically hurt me to get her point through. Today, she found out I was eating in my room, came in and started to punch and kick me. When I put up my arms to block her punches, she started screaming saying, "Oh, so now you want to fight back?"
She took my phone away and started to smack the phone cover over my head. I can't even fight back because I fear what would happen if I ever do. It takes everything for me to prevent myself from grabbing the nearest item and using that against her. SHe threatens to kick me out. I have my GCSEs to do. She told me, "Go ahead. Call the police. See if I care."
I once told her I was suicidal (my dad didn't want to take me to a GP or therapist saying that he didn't want a mentally insane daughter and that if I had a mental illness, I should be locked away in an asylum). She said that I should just go and kill myself and that I was a fucking idiot.
I don't even a phone to call my friends for emotional support. What can I do?

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Comments ( 5 )
  • bitchesaintshit

    Leave. walk to a public place (library, police station, whatever's close) and tell an adult whats going on, ask to use their phone to call someone better to live with and/or report your parents. also if you're online right now why can't you contact friends that way?

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  • xxLucifer

    Call the police tell them what is going on and they will be there pretty fast. What she is doing is assault and possibly raised to aggravated assault, it is also considered domestic violence. Your mother can and should face criminal charges for what she is doing to you. You can also go to thehotline.org which is a website for The National Domestic Violence Hotline they have online chats if you are unable to call the police. There are also domestic violence centers every state, thehotline.com has a list with all of them.

    If you live somewhere outside of America though then you are gonna have to do some research as to what resources are in your country, but definitely contact the police.

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  • Lestat565

    Your parents are pieces of shit. Tell someone. What they are doing is physical and mental abuse. And you can get them in trouble. Whatever you do don’t kill your self. It gets better eventually

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  • sissycakes

    basically i get that love plays a role and guilt. i am sorry for this. i always wonder what my life would be like if people were to hit me, and i know it would make everything worse. i hope that she stops, but i am guessing that she is upset or stressed about something unrelated to you. your dad probably thought that you were putting on airs and did not think it was serious. if he only knew he would probably think differently.

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  • Nednerb43

    Tell someone, anyone just make it known. Any you can always talk to us :)

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