Watching a rape scene turns me on...
I am disgusted with myself but I am turned on by rape scenes. I fantasize about being raped and have had rape fantasies as fulfilled as is possible consentually with safe words. I could never hurt anyone, I am very compassionate and sensitive but I am experiencing what I think may be a fetish. Not sure tho. I sometimes think about children. I now make it so I am not around them as much. I know I need help. I am scared to tell my therapist for fear of persecution even tho I have never and would never touch a child. I just get uncomfortable because I dont know if I have potential to hurt someone or if they are simply thoughts. Please don't attack me. Please point me in the right direction.