Watching a rape scene turns me on...

I am disgusted with myself but I am turned on by rape scenes. I fantasize about being raped and have had rape fantasies as fulfilled as is possible consentually with safe words. I could never hurt anyone, I am very compassionate and sensitive but I am experiencing what I think may be a fetish. Not sure tho. I sometimes think about children. I now make it so I am not around them as much. I know I need help. I am scared to tell my therapist for fear of persecution even tho I have never and would never touch a child. I just get uncomfortable because I dont know if I have potential to hurt someone or if they are simply thoughts. Please don't attack me. Please point me in the right direction.

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  • amylpine247

    You need help

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  • Polyamoury32

    Do not masturbate to those thoughts as it reenforces them.

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  • Cobrakitnu

    You've made it clear that these are just thoughts. As long as you don't act on them and you keep them as fantasies, you're alright.

    Talking to a therapist would be good too, if you think it'd help.

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  • shade_ilmaendu

    The reality isn't fun.

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