Was i curious or a dumb naive kid.

I was 12 and so was my best friend. One day went swimming. He came up behind me in the shallow end and pulled my trunks down. In fact he did it several times, Finally I was getting out of the pool when he did it again. I asked him, "What's the matter, you like my butt or something? He replied, "What if I did?" We both laughed and went about our business.

That night, as on other summer nights, we pitched a tent in my backyard, not 50 feet from my back porch. Just two young boys wearing pajamas, in sleeping bags, in a tent. We did have flashlights and a deck of cards. We talked the night away until he brought up that afternoon.We got curious to where we were comparing penises, taking turns standing nude while the other examining you with the flashlight.

Finally, my friend says he wants to try something. He wants me to lie down in my stomach. He assures me he won't hurt me and that I could return the favor. A chill ran through my body, but I reluctantly complied. He then comes up from behind me and lowers himself down on me. He pushes his penis against my anal opening. Then nothing. We just laid there. It felt strange, but ok. Now what?

Then he rolled off, laid on his stomach and asked me to do the same to him. Without much hesitation, I assumed the position and pushed my penis between his cheeks.But I thrusted a bit,. All of a suddened I ejaculated all over his butt. It scared the crap out of us. We got dressed, got back in sleeping bags. Not sure what we did, or why, we overwhelmed with a of guilt.

We never spoke about again.We remained friends but never close again. We both grew up, married and had children. We lost contact. Through the years though, and more so now, I reply the scenario in my mind. To this day, I wonder if I was curious, a dumb naive kid or a latent homosexual. I've never been attracted to men. But I still think back, smile and admit ti myself, I kind of liked it. So what does that make me?