Verbal sadist- i say the worst things to my mother
Ever since l was a teenager, when l get into a fight with my mom l come up with the worst most hateful things to say and my voice has this evil tone.. the things l say are really shocking for a daughter to tell a mom.. l don't mean most of the shit l say but make sure it seems like l mean every word to inflict the most pain. I feel really bad after i calm down but l never show it and never apologize and just pretend it didnt happen. My mom has a lot of faults as a mother specially when i was a child but she's still a good mom and doesn't deserve my treatment. l keep telling myself it wont happen again but l cant control this inner sadist inside me when my anger is triggered:c