Verbal sadist- i say the worst things to my mother

Ever since l was a teenager, when l get into a fight with my mom l come up with the worst most hateful things to say and my voice has this evil tone.. the things l say are really shocking for a daughter to tell a mom.. l don't mean most of the shit l say but make sure it seems like l mean every word to inflict the most pain. I feel really bad after i calm down but l never show it and never apologize and just pretend it didnt happen. My mom has a lot of faults as a mother specially when i was a child but she's still a good mom and doesn't deserve my treatment. l keep telling myself it wont happen again but l cant control this inner sadist inside me when my anger is triggered:c

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  • S12207

    At least you can acknowledge what you're doing. Change your perspective and in every situation put yourself in her shoes and what she's feeling. If you feel yourself getting angry try to stop and leave the room if you have to and think about everything before you just react and regret it. Try some breathing techniques

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  • Rjshow

    I jst hate her

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  • Ascelin

    You likely have anger management issues. There are classes for it, videos online, books about it, etc. I think it would be really beneficial for you and your mother if you worked on it. It must be absolutely heart breaking for her to hear one of the people she loves the most in the world intentionally be so spiteful as to intentionally inflict the most pain possible. Also, if you hope to have a long term relationship of any kind with a human being outside of your family, your anger issues will get in the way. Why would someone want to be with someone that intentionally hurts them just because they're mad. Speaking from experience, it leaves scars on the person. I will never be able to get the things he said out of my mind, and your mother won't ever forget the things you say either.

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  • Me9900

    Be careful what you say because things have a way of returning to you ...and one day you will become a parent and you want better for your children not chaos and destruction.

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