Unsure of my gender, please help Also looking for cross-dressing advice

I'm Alicia, but I was formerly known as Barry. I have faced many harsh criticism on how I was in my younger years. Thank god it's 2017 and that the world is changing on a different view of the LGBTQ community. Who gives a flying fuck of what other people think about you. No matter how many water bottles I shove up in my neighbour's anus. I am still me. I am still Barry White. You do you boo.xx