Trapped in myself

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Hi..I'm a quiet, kept to myself yough female who thinks too much & I do not think that has done me any favours. I hate expressing true emotions, & I hate attention towards me yet at the same time I want everyone to know how I feel & I guess as a social being I want attention.

I have been thinking about self harm & suicide aloooott, but I am too much of a coward to try it out, I know they say these acts are selfish but I feel like I have no one to talk to or any other way to make myself feel relieved & I feel trapped within myself & I just don't know how to express it,I know there are far my people worse off than me etc but its preventing me from trusting others & ruining my relationships.

I don't think it's normal but I just want other people's opinions, what do I do now?

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Based on 41 votes (31 yes)
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  • gowila
    13 years ago

    You should go to the doc, and get on some medication. It changed my life, and gave me heaps more confidence. You will be suprised how many aspects of your life will change for the better.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    Wow. Kinda heartbreaking too see how many people feel like this. If i could i would help you all.

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  • Katelyn10101
    11 years ago

    Please don't start, it's a horrible cycle.

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  • blaster
    12 years ago

    You sound a bit like my girl - well girl to be . I ask what seems like stupid and obvious questions about her around here but they aren't so bc she's a lot like you and she's had a bloody hard time so she's pretty messed up.
    Trying to read her ups and downs, reactions , responses , contradicting comments or chat's, swings, been pretty mind blowing.
    I'd steer clear of someone like her normally bc I know how draining and hurtful it might get but eh you fall for whomever you fall for and that's how it goes.Besides , not only is she as hot as it gets , she's also a pretty rare and incredible person amongst it all when she is on level ground.
    But I think you need to get away from yourself a little , your head , go out , notice the world going on around you , any people you know mix a bit more , forget about you for awhile and stop thinking inward so much.

    Good luck

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  • yogachick17
    13 years ago

    I am the exact same way...I find it depressing...I mean it's not always bad but Ive always hoped there would be someone out there who understands and can help me...trust me on this though...self harm doesn't only hurt yourself...if and when other people find out they blame themselves...it's not worth it...I've learned. You just gotta try to find something that makes you feel good. For me it's listening to or playing music. It gives me something better to focus on instead of how I can't interract with people. I've gotten better but it's a lifelong battle sweetie. You just gotta stick it out.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    exactly the same story here :)
    it sucks though

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Talk to someone you trust AKA write it all down... every word that you think and go over it. Or (I am not religous) but go to that person who talks to you in the box? Okay that last one was stupid but just try to express you're self, in any way. :)

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Im the same way!

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    I feel like that 2 but I'm 2 scared to do any self-harm either

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  • timebobbu
    13 years ago

    I think it must be PMS or something..

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Yeah, i don't have friends, so what?
    I like cutting myself, and, i think its normal.

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