Told someone about abuse, made me feel more depressed, iin?

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Back in eighth grade which was three year's ago now i was sexually assulted behind a public toilet at a music festival, drunk. I hadnt told anyone, not a soul. This contributed to me developing bulimia with anorexic tendencies and when talking about my eating disorder with my best friend i opened up about the sexual assault. I cried and it was hard for me to tell, i had to keep stopping and i sugar coated it to make her think it wasnt as bad, i didnt include the intercourse which turned it into rape. It was horribe and now being able to open up about it has made me more depressed than ever because i csnt keep thinking abiut ir and re- living it. Is this normal? Because i thoight openning up would help me?

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  • Riddler
    9 years ago | pl

    You are at risk of developing PTSD. I would say talk to a therapists. You are most likely not dealing with the trauma but avoiding the event in your mind. People who have been through trauma sometimes need help accepting, dealing and getting through it.

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  • what27
    11 years ago | pl

    I agree ^ this is a hard one for me to answer because I have never been through that...but I have had other moments in my life where Ive been pushed around and beat but never to that degree...I didnt need to tell anyone cause everyon already knew but when I moved and went to highschool all of sudden people liked me but I still felt like I wasnt cool and it haunted me like what if they are just faking what if its all just a big conspiracy and theyre all laughing behind my back and after I told one of my friends how I felt I thought it would help but it made me feel worse because now I wasnt the only one who knew. Now he knew too and what could I tell him? That I was just kidding? I dont know how this is supposed to help you because its not nearly as bad as being raped but it was very depressing and I never really felt a connection with anyone and still am socially awkward...all I can say is that there is absolutely nothin wrong with you bad things happen to good people you dont want to let that turn you bitter or distant. Youre still alive and young with a full life ahead of you. Just become strong and just maybe you can prevent what happened to you from happening to others or help them with the things you are having trouble with.

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