To want a sexist man?
I'm a 21 year old girl and I've had decent boyfriends in the past but sometimes I see these really sexist comments that boyfriends make to their partners or the way they control their lives and I know it's wrong and it's disgusting but I can't help feeling somewhat turned on by that kind of man, like I want to be submissive to them. I know sexist men are disgusting pigs but when I'm at the moment I just want to play along. It's something I can't tell any of my friends as I'm a feminist and they are too. This has been going on for a while right now so I'm really starting to consider that maybe this is just who I am and I've seen many right wing women who just like to be submissive and they're happy to obey men. I still feel strongly disgusted by the thought of that but something inside me always makes me want it at some time or another. Should I give this feeling a chance and try to get in a male-dominant relationship to see how I feel like or should I just go to a psychiatrist or something?