To hate my sister
my sister is older than me and she is very beautiful, popular and smart. she is the first in her class and everyone in school respects her, she also writes poems and stories and publish them and they are pretty good. and im the oposite. i am smart but ugly and cant write anything my father always expects me to write somthing great like her and wants me to be the first in my class and have full marks. he puts a lot of pressure on me and i dont have any time for anything and its like i live in her shadow and last year i had a crush on this boy and i told my sister and asked her what she thinks of him she said that she hates him but the next week she comes and tells me that he is her boyfriend now and she brings him home and kisses him in front of me and they are still together now and when i told her that i still like him she told you didnt have a chance from the start and that i wont find anyone who will love me and that im fat. also i dont have a lot of friends and am always bullied. do you think its normal to hate her?