To get tricked into getting a blow job for money , regret it

I was tricked by a gay guy for money to get a bj's .. i went to his house to cut school because he lived in my neighborhood , he invited me up . I did not know what i was getting in to . I met him a week before because he was looking at me for a while . He looked like he needed weed or something and used to sell. I have never felt gay i just got tricked into doing stuff. So anyways he told me he pays to give bj's to men. I thought it was weird because i never heard this from anyone before. So i told him i'll see if i can get him someone . So i saw him next time like a week after . I was on my way to school , and he caught me in the same place in my neighborhood . He told me to come up so i can see where he lives . I went up and saw it , i chilled for a little while and it was just me and him and den he grabs my penis. i don't know why i got a little hard i guess it was because he touched it. Then he invites me to his room and says why don't u let me give you a bj and i said you have to pay me first. Then he convinces me that he will get his check on the weekend and he would pay me . So he convinced me ( i was so STUPID) and den he gives me the bj , in the beginning my penis had a hard time getting hard so he stopped and told me to think about a girl that i like and close my eyes. He was like a pro and i did what he said and eventually came and he swallowed it ( IT WAS SO DISGUSTING after i realized what i just did. I was 17 at the time and i never been interested in men and i just was desperate to make a extra 400 or 500 bucks . The guy never payed me and that got me so mad. I Feel like i lost my dignity for no reason. Other than that experience i had one in dominican republic when i was there for the summer . Me and my friends that i met over there , were friends with a gay kid that was around our age . one day me and my friends were with him and one of my friends started having anal sex with the gay kid in the room that i was staying in, i was about 13 or 14 . after that the gay kid continued to hang out with us . and one day i think i put my penis in his butt . I don't remember it going in so i guess i was humping . i never came and i only did that with him for about 5 min. because i really was not interested . ( I regret that alot until this day and then the bj just really made me notice i am not gay and i am never doing anything again)
i am now 18 i never kissed another guy or did anything else i do not like men i have had several girlfriends and love girls . i am turning 19 and have a girlfriend and enjoy sex with her . ( I regret all of the things i did even though no one know it makes me feel horrible because i know i like girls i was just never really talkative with girls so i never got to have sex with more girls . i have had girlfriends all my life and i have had sex with 3 different girls . (I just Wish i could go back in time to avoid all those gay things . I believe if there was not gay people ever around me this would have never happened .. thanks to who ever read this . and no i never gave bj's or hand jobs i never even touched another guys penis . i guess my father not being in my life has affected me and my mentality on sex . Again thanks to who ever read this . god bless .