To feel like no one cares?

No need to pity me like I said I dont really care about it, shit happens.

My father was an alcoholic who left my uncle to look after me when I was a child then later he was found out to be a pedophile. My step dad was a psychotic drug dealer who constantly abused my whole family excpet my little brother because he was my step fathers son he also tried to kill us which led to us having to relocate and change our names. My gran hated me and constantly hit me when I was a child. I was almost raped by my step brother when I was a child. Those are just a few things that happened in my life and just a few people in my life so do you really think you have it bad? If I can not care about thigns like that how come you feel depressed over something smaller? No one understands me even people on here have told me. As a child I was being tested to see if I have any problems I remember lying through it all. I went through my life feeling an outcast due to how I lived my life and due to the fact I cant feel sad or happy not understanding how people live the way they do. I constantly try find things that will give me a reason to live I have cut myself just to see if I can feel alive which it didnt work (Im not suicidal). The only people who have thought there is something wrong with me was teachers and doctors, one of which I went to see for a complete different reason from the way I am and he noticed something wierd about me and it later became into a discusion of him asking for me to come back if I could to find out more about me and he later on said "if there is something wrong its not like we will send you to a clinic straight away" So before you think "They dont know how I feel or what iv been through" just remember there are so many people gone through worse and have it worse due to not being able to experience those feelings.

No need to pity me like I said to the other person shit happens I dont care about it at all so no need for pity.

I did have "friends" I just never considered them as friends just people to fit into the social norm.

I do understand perfectly they feel depressed because of? oh because they feel like no one cares when they know that people do? how pathetic.
I understand perfectly its just that you dont like how I understand it. Considering I have lived my whole life with someone who actualy is depressed I think I would understand and by the way this person thats been in my life all my life thats depressed actualy has a reason to be depressed and whats this persons reason? because he feels somethings not there when he knows it is?
Grow up.