Thoughts of a previous attemted suicide

I hate when people say that committing suicide is selfish, maybe if they had given two shits about you wouldn't want to end your life.

I think it's incredible rude for people to say that it's selfish, that causes more harm then good.

A few years ago, I tried to commit suicide at the zoo, by giving myself a heatstroke. It failed and every time I go there I get reminded.....

I recently went to Europe and things got messed up fast. I was also very sick at the time.... I got suicidal. Not too much in england, but when I got to Paris I started to contemplate. Each day got worse and I was occupied by all this ideas in my head. I would've loved to have ended it, but I could never find sometime to be alone. I missed my chance to jump of the tower and I didn't get to jump in the water. I still wanted to kill myself when I got to Rome, I still wanted to do it, but I alas never got the chance. No one knew. I didn't even tell my friend's and there's no way I could've left a note.... I

sounds like the original problem is bubbling under the surface, go speak to a professional to help you

I want to go back to Europe and I know that the memories of my past will still probably haunt me....

Certain fragrances, designs, songs remind me of a tramatic time in my life where I somewhat relive it. I think its normal

Well the best thing to do is get help, family, friends, teachers, suicide-hotlines, life coaches, etc. There is hope out there! You just gotta find it!

''standing by idle will not achieve your goals and in order to achieve something, you must take it.''

Its normal. But i think you should better get it off your chest and tell a close friend/parent about it. Nobody would attempt to commit suicide just like that. There's always a reason behind it. It could be due to depression also. I'd say you should talk to someone about it :) if you think your parents/friends will freak out then may be you can talk to a professional instead.

This is coming from someone who made a serious attempt at suicide years ago, more serious then jumping in a lake would be anyway.

You will never forget it and the days when you dont think about it will be few and far between for the rest of your life.

You can still live a decent life, but it will always be there somewhere in your mind.

i find it hard to stop thinking about the memory once i start and i start crying and friends ask me whats wrong and i say momories. and they no im technally lying to them.