This a gross, painful and not normal!
I am a young homosexual male, early 20's and I have unconsciously developed a rather horrible habit. Ever since I was 19, I began having an obsession of making sure there was no "poop in the shoot" and to always be clean and ready for anal intercourse. So by doing this, I have rid of one problem and started an entirely different EMBARRASSING problem. I have to stick my finger up my anus to go poop. It's the only way i can pass waste anymore, and it's extremely embarrassing and disgusting. I don't do it because I have a shit fetish what-so-ever because the thought of poop alone disgusts me. However, I feel this is creating a severe health problem. I can no longer poop normally, and when i try to it just doesn't all come out... which leaves me feeling very uncomfortable. The worst part of it all is that this habit seems to relieve the feeling of being "full of shit", and then my lower intestines and anus ache afterward. I've seen that a couple of people have the same problem, and I am just glad that I am not alone. I think it has become a total mind thing. I think going to a doctor would only embarrass me more. I need help!