The way i feel about myself?

Try to be more confident.

When you are confident people will respect you for it. Same with girls, girls mostly only date confident people.

Remember you are as wonderful as you think you are, and your friends probably see the insulting and such as a joke and because you laugh that just proves to them you can take their jokes (which you don't) just tell them how you feel (without getting too emotional).

Dude... You have got to find a better group of people to hang with ... Your self esteem is already crippled , you dont need any help... If you wrre half retarded you wouldnt be able to use this app or express yourself so well.... You need to rethink your opinion of yourself.... Btw... You do know that heide klum married seal dont you?

how can you be half mentally chalanged? o,o

it's normal for people too have low confidence but its quite rare too see someone who is so up beat about it. LOL, its good your comfortable with being "ugly" and "half-retarded" (im sure your neither) Its good too be able to laugh at yourself but you should really give yourself more credit. I'm sure you are gorgeous to someone, even if your not smart at all topics im sure theres something you understand and know alll about, and im also sure you will find a lovely girl!

I agree with combobreaker, get a talent, guys with talent are sexy

i would think that way if my friends laughed at me.

about asking girls out, i hope you are looking at girls who you would consider similar to you. in other words, don't aim for ms. popular, not right now anway.

if you really think you have some sort of disability, i strongly urge you to talk to someone you know is mature and intelligent. i am thinking on the lines of school counselor, trusted teacher, etc.

depending on your age, this could just be adolescence issue, or puberty type difficulties. good luck

one thing for sure, this is a temporary problem and you should grow out of it.

You just need more self confidence, thats all. Find something you're good at and get better at it. Ugly or not, talent is a whole other thing that people are attracted to.