You don't need to end it. I know how you feel, I'm also at the mercy of an illegitimate mind. It's bullshit though. Money is important, but it's not that important. You can not equate a human life with money because you and every other person is worth so much more. I'm sorry that your parents taught you differently and now have burdened you with all this unnecessary guilt. I'm not a licensed therapist, nor do I have a degree or any training whatsoever but I encourage you to try seeing it this way. When someone gives you a gift, it's not just them spending money on you, they are trying to share a moment with you, if you take that present gladly and smile and enjoy it, than you have paid them. You have paid them with love and respect and gratefulness. And your partner, why does he do these things for you? Because you give him the love he needs, I'm sure you make him very happy, and for now that should be enough.
I'm sorry you think you are a waste of everyones time but you have people that love you and the worse thing you can do is shut them out in your time of need, and maybe one day, if it makes you feel better thinking about it, you can be there for them.
I grew up with no understanding that moments with me were anything but a nuisance so to relieve their burden, I would at times stay away so they could do more important things. It is something I struggle with and I cannot see myself as in any way important unless I am not costing money. i know its BS and I would never see another person that way. I'm not sure I will ever get around it and with the severe problems i have had over employment mentioned elsewhere here, it feels impossible and is a survival threat to boot, so a living nightmare actually.
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You know these thoughts aren't rational right?
You don't need to end it. I know how you feel, I'm also at the mercy of an illegitimate mind. It's bullshit though. Money is important, but it's not that important. You can not equate a human life with money because you and every other person is worth so much more. I'm sorry that your parents taught you differently and now have burdened you with all this unnecessary guilt. I'm not a licensed therapist, nor do I have a degree or any training whatsoever but I encourage you to try seeing it this way. When someone gives you a gift, it's not just them spending money on you, they are trying to share a moment with you, if you take that present gladly and smile and enjoy it, than you have paid them. You have paid them with love and respect and gratefulness. And your partner, why does he do these things for you? Because you give him the love he needs, I'm sure you make him very happy, and for now that should be enough.
I'm sorry you think you are a waste of everyones time but you have people that love you and the worse thing you can do is shut them out in your time of need, and maybe one day, if it makes you feel better thinking about it, you can be there for them.
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I grew up with no understanding that moments with me were anything but a nuisance so to relieve their burden, I would at times stay away so they could do more important things. It is something I struggle with and I cannot see myself as in any way important unless I am not costing money. i know its BS and I would never see another person that way. I'm not sure I will ever get around it and with the severe problems i have had over employment mentioned elsewhere here, it feels impossible and is a survival threat to boot, so a living nightmare actually.