This made me cry because that's how the guy is that I currently like very much :(
He had attempted suicide before we were together, and done a lot of other self-harming things that could've killed him... it makes me cry to think he could've died even if it's past... it's not really past though still has serious depression... he is a very beautiful soul too... they seem to be the most tortured...
and its so easy for people to look at this and say "ohh I would leave him, that's a red flag, don't love a 'crazy' person blah blah you will be hurt" and I worry that in principle they are right,since it would hurt so much to lose him that maybe it would've been better I never loved him at all... but that's not how love works...
and to make this relevent to the OP, he is the first person I've ever truly loved...
Even if something were to happen, knowing that somebody loves him would bring him an immeasurable peace in the depths of his mind- no matter what despair he is in.
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This made me cry because that's how the guy is that I currently like very much :(
He had attempted suicide before we were together, and done a lot of other self-harming things that could've killed him... it makes me cry to think he could've died even if it's past... it's not really past though still has serious depression... he is a very beautiful soul too... they seem to be the most tortured...
and its so easy for people to look at this and say "ohh I would leave him, that's a red flag, don't love a 'crazy' person blah blah you will be hurt" and I worry that in principle they are right,since it would hurt so much to lose him that maybe it would've been better I never loved him at all... but that's not how love works...
and to make this relevent to the OP, he is the first person I've ever truly loved...
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Even if something were to happen, knowing that somebody loves him would bring him an immeasurable peace in the depths of his mind- no matter what despair he is in.
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You have a wonderful touch, my dear.
Awwwwww *hugs*
It hurts to love someone who hates/hurts themselves. But all you can do is try to make them see that they are worthy of love.
Nick was very damaged, in many ways. I see that now. It still hurts that he's gone...but he was in so much pain, I can understand why he did it.
I hope things improve for your bf and you. I really want a happy ending for you guys ♡ you're such a sweetheart, I want you to be happy.
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Oh gosh, thank you so much *hugs* sorry for your loss but I know you have found true love now ~^-^~