Supposedly addicted to a fictional character
I am well aware that crushing on fictional people is common, but for me, it has been going on for a good 4 years. Now, this is the first actual "crush" I have ever had, and surprisingly, it continues to stick with me.
Since I have developed this interest, (I'll start using pronouns) he has done nothing but make me absolutely and indescribably happy, unlike anything I have ever felt for anyone else.
I've done everything I can think of just to get these overwhelming feelings off my chest, having difficulty being able to keep them pent up, including drawing, writing, listening to songs that remind me of him, watching videos of him, and talking to myself and others about him.
I mentioned that these feelings I feel every day can be overwhelming, but often to a point where I just want to lay on the floor, smiling, laughing, and sometimes crying, just over this seemingly small cause. I feel things like butterflies and warmth in my stomach thinking of him, but then there would be situations where I feel nauseous, or sick.
It is very difficult for me to try to imagine my life without him, as I've just made him a crucially important source of happiness in my life. That's why, when I feel that my mind could be moving on from him, I get dreadfully upset. I sort of force myself back into my previous mindset, until things return to normal for me.
I would have never brought this up, nor thought about it until my friend mentioned it to me, with legitimate concern. He mentioned how much I bring it up during our every-day conversations, and says that I sound insane when I tell him the things I do because of this, telling me firmly that he believes I could have an addiction, or an obsession. My denial of an issue has negatively affected our friendship, to a point where he completely left me for a good bit because of it getting in the way of everything.
The reason I don't think there's a problem, is because I've never been this happy in my life, and nothing but positivity has been brought to me from this, bringing me to the conclusion, how bad could it possibly be? So I want to know, is this long lasting love for some fictional character an issue?
(I would greatly appreciate comments)
(If this is your second time seeing this, apologies. I wrote this a year ago, and haven't gotten over it, and wanted to word it a bit better.)