Sudden (almost) breakdown

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Years and years ago my Dad left my Mum, but my first memory is of my Dad telling us he had to go, but that he still loved us and that 'we'd always see him', we did but at the time I couldn't understand that (I must have been 4 or 5) so first I find goodbyes hard, in the back of my mind it's always: 'I'm never going to see them again' even though I don't think anyone's ever left me for good, I see my Dad every weekend and some evenings during the week.
However, I've always found this difficult, everything my Dad did used to upset me, espically if he split up from a girlfriend, and it got to the piont where I had to have a counsillor to realise that I shouldn't do that, and now it's okay, I look forward to the good things about being with my Dad, and I've learnt to stop worrying about things so much, but like this week, sometimes it's like a piece of paper, that just kinda of covers everything, and that is if I'm busy (like if I work myself stupid I don't think about the things I'm worried about) and I've found that this has made me good in school, so for that it's good- BUT as soon as I start chilling things kinda come through. Like this week I've been working really hard at a work placement, and I've really enjoyed it, and I've worked harder if I've started thinking about something, but tonight I stopped and chilled out, and all it took was for someone to ask if I was 'okay' online and everything came out, and I was crying and shaking.
1. is it normal to cry nearly every time you say goodbye or at leaste feel a twank in my heart if I'm saying goodbye to someone I'm going to see tomorrow.
2. is it normal to cover up my emotions the way I seem to?
3. is it normal to just blow up as I have explained above?
If they are- how do I deal with it?
Thanks in advance

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  • ihaveapenisinmyshoe
    13 years ago

    @hotchickie81 I'm the same way

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  • pocket13
    13 years ago

    I am going through the same thing. It drives me crazy and it feels so yucky. I started seeing a counselor though, and it's helped soo sooo much. Events in the past affect us and pop up as we grow up and change, it's confusing and so normal, given your past. I'm telling you though, talking through it and learning how to deal with it is a lifesaver.....and I'll tell ya, it doesn't just go away one day, gets worse as u grow up, so learn about it now :)

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  • SyC0Pathik
    14 years ago

    its completely normal to feel that way i think that your vunerable and have supressed feelings. what you need to do is the next time you say good bye tell your self to not feel that way and ask yourself why you act like that and the answers should reveal themselves the brain is a powerful tool.

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  • hotchickie81
    14 years ago

    Hmmm, I get those feelings a lot too... and I never really knew why.

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  • Spunj
    14 years ago

    I think it's just a mental response to past expieriences. Like the time your dad left it was like a traumatic expierience. It's pretty normal for stuff like that to leave it's mark. It might be like a way your mind is telling you it hurt you in a way. You could go see a conselor about it or talk to it with more people how you feel. Talking things like this out is the best way to get it out of your system.

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