Strong fixation with pale white skin
I've developed an obsession with very fair skin. I'm already very white, and not trying to change my race in anyway as I'm already caucasian. I find it to be one of the most purest things a woman can have, it's mysterious, yet alluring. I think of being the fairest of them all, all of the time.
I used to hate being pale and would fake tan, I embraced it a couple years back and have never felt more special. I even lighten my skin now all the time with soaps and creams.
I don't care about looking "ghostly" or "sick", I feed off of people's glances in public and feel like I'm the queen. Why else would pale skin be so fetishized today if It wasn't so sexy?
I find the only way I can love myself and feel beautiful inside and out is if I'm as white as snow.. to achieve and maintain this goal of mine, I barely go outside.. It's sort of preventing me from living my life.