Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me Southweirdman, lander8 & normal adventure!! Withdrawal was a whole nother anxiety in it self that came from attempting to quit the 1st few days. But the bigger anxiety building was knowing it isn’t worth losing my job or it takin food outta my 4 yr old sons mouth for a quick fix 🌬💨. The truth of the matter is I knew I can do it since I previously already stopped from 2017-2019. When vaping took the market by storm it was a gateway drug right back to lighting up. Especially when I started dealin with this new chick that but of course smoked weed🌬💨. But stopped talkin too recently after realizing how insecure she was since we didn’t live close enough to each other which came with her randomly gettin jealous if she didn’t hear from me in a few days. On another note any of y’all start dreaming more than usual after stopping? In the 2 yrs I was sober I even remember 1 night when it felt like I could’ve sworn I was awake but felt like someone was suffocating me with there hands over my mouth in my 💤 & I couldn’t move until I stuck my tongue out & then the presence vanished!!! What was weirder is my BM was 💤 but what was even weirder is my son who was then 2yrs old was awake in his crib & appeared to know exactly what happened but couldn’t really talk for his age at the time. But his facial expression was stunned!! Guess that’s really the reason why I joined this platform. Do our kids see things which we can’t manifest with our own eyes more effectively than we can?
I followed most of what you wrote but I'm not clear about "What was weirder is my BM was 💤". In any case it's definitely possible that you experienced something profound that your son was aware of... It's definitely possible regardless of what anyone may say, but who can say better than you?
So what confuses me is that you refer to weed and having a blunt to your lips, but also said that "vaping... was a gateway drug right back to lighting up" Can you explain? Were you vaping or smoking joints?
Both but oddly enough weed felt far more authentic than the thc pens & I was pretty clumsy with em so they’d wind up breaking if I forgot I had em on my lap before standing up & the glass would break the min they hit the floor so I gave up vaping within 6 months since it wasn’t worth losing $20 or $30 bucks just to break it the next day. As for the episode with the entity or whatever it was suffocating me I’m sticking with my gut that somehow it crossed over that night possibly because of a recent death at the time in my BM’s family side now that I think about it🤔. Btw I abbreviate baby mother by just using BM instead.
Stopped smoking weed for a week
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Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me Southweirdman, lander8 & normal adventure!! Withdrawal was a whole nother anxiety in it self that came from attempting to quit the 1st few days. But the bigger anxiety building was knowing it isn’t worth losing my job or it takin food outta my 4 yr old sons mouth for a quick fix 🌬💨. The truth of the matter is I knew I can do it since I previously already stopped from 2017-2019. When vaping took the market by storm it was a gateway drug right back to lighting up. Especially when I started dealin with this new chick that but of course smoked weed🌬💨. But stopped talkin too recently after realizing how insecure she was since we didn’t live close enough to each other which came with her randomly gettin jealous if she didn’t hear from me in a few days. On another note any of y’all start dreaming more than usual after stopping? In the 2 yrs I was sober I even remember 1 night when it felt like I could’ve sworn I was awake but felt like someone was suffocating me with there hands over my mouth in my 💤 & I couldn’t move until I stuck my tongue out & then the presence vanished!!! What was weirder is my BM was 💤 but what was even weirder is my son who was then 2yrs old was awake in his crib & appeared to know exactly what happened but couldn’t really talk for his age at the time. But his facial expression was stunned!! Guess that’s really the reason why I joined this platform. Do our kids see things which we can’t manifest with our own eyes more effectively than we can?
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I followed most of what you wrote but I'm not clear about "What was weirder is my BM was 💤". In any case it's definitely possible that you experienced something profound that your son was aware of... It's definitely possible regardless of what anyone may say, but who can say better than you?
So what confuses me is that you refer to weed and having a blunt to your lips, but also said that "vaping... was a gateway drug right back to lighting up" Can you explain? Were you vaping or smoking joints?
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Both but oddly enough weed felt far more authentic than the thc pens & I was pretty clumsy with em so they’d wind up breaking if I forgot I had em on my lap before standing up & the glass would break the min they hit the floor so I gave up vaping within 6 months since it wasn’t worth losing $20 or $30 bucks just to break it the next day. As for the episode with the entity or whatever it was suffocating me I’m sticking with my gut that somehow it crossed over that night possibly because of a recent death at the time in my BM’s family side now that I think about it🤔. Btw I abbreviate baby mother by just using BM instead.
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Ah... BM as baby's Mother is not really a common acronym. Let me think overnight to see if I have anything to add. Thanks for answering.