Still want to badly try lesbian sex but cant find a gf

I don't do it now because of the covid thing and they are shutdown temporary. But I experimented on and off from the time I was really young through my teens then a few times in my 30's. I'm in my 40's now and 3 years ago I wanted to be with another woman so bad that I tried going to a lesbian bar then even looked online but I was scared I'd meet someone dangerous and regret it. I happened to find out about this place where you could arrange to act your fantasy out. It wasn't cheap....for $350 for 2 hours I got to enjoy being naughty with another female. It could be whatever fantasy or fetish I desired. I chose a woman a little younger than I and at the time they only had maybe 6 women to choose from and 3 men. The woman I chose was caucasion as I and she was 37 and very attractive. She was a little snooty which I liked. I'd usually go once or twice every two weeks. I'd pay when I arrived and meet her in a room. Whatever I wanted to do I would tell them the day before so it would be prepared. Meaning if I wanted bondage or humiliation or just let go and be as naughty as you could think of. There were no strings attached and it was only for the fun and to feel good and be relieved of the desire for awhile. The place is called Expectations Fulfilled. It was just a lot easier going there and being with another female than trying to meet someone that you could trust to be honest and wanted to play or experiment with another female and wouldn't tell everyone like maybe someone in your neighborhood or at work. And I didn't want anything to do with anyone from a bar or club. This place you already know the girl is either lesbian or bi and she will satisfy you for your money of course.