Should I go full transgender or not?

It's very common and normal to feel that you are an "inbetween" gender who fluctuates back and forth between male and female, or constantly feels in-between.

I suggest you familiarise yourself with the genderqueer community. From what you say, it sounds like you could find some people you have stuff in common with there and maybe clear your mind up.

Also, detatch gender identity from gender presentation. You can like dresses, drag, make-up, long hair etc and still identify fully as a man, albeit an effeminate one.

However, if you're having ANY doubts whatsoever, I strongly advise against transitioning fully into a man. It's too drastic and with potentially permanent/irreversible changes to your body, to do while having doubts.

Hope this helps x