Should i forgive my mother for her bipolor actions
My mother is bipolor. She clung to me a long time and prevented me from getting a job, a driver liscense, having freinds or tslking to extended family. When I saw her family she be mad if they were happy to see me, told me I deserved a beating, lash out and throw things and scream at me. When I saw freinds she hated everyone so I stopped seeing my freinds. When I wanted to learn to drive at 18 so I could get a job in security she did everything to prevent it. I know bipolorism can cuase psychotic episodes and severe mood swings sometimes even on medication. When she got a new husband she told him to treat me and my younger sibling bad becuase we deserved it for being awful children. I know she has a disorder so should I forgive her? Or hope she rots in the deepest pits of hell one day like I been praying for every night? I left at 20 and moved away. Im safer now but she wants me to come back. Im scarred she might try to kill me like she kept threatening before?