Sexual arousal from jealousy
I have a girlfriend, she's 19 and I'm 20, and we're both in love. I am a little bit jealous and insecure, as she is my first girlfriend. However, when I masturbate I fantasize about her having sex with a stranger (sometimes more than one) while I secretely watch, enraged. In my fantasies, the other male is usually somewhat dominant, and he does the same kinds of things I like to do to her sexually, but she seems to enjoy it more than when I do them. After the climax I feel kind of unhealthy.
I haven't told her, she's very sweet and innocent and with little sexual experience, so I don't want to weird her out.
Is this normal at all? Does anyone have any
insight or advice you could give me? Please