I am writing back to this because I have currently been crying for two hours straight because I saw my roommate eating. I hate my roommate, and to see someone who I hate , eating is confronting for me. I've been like this for a while, if people confront me while I'm eating it's the worst feeling in the world.
First off, I know I personally associate food with greed. Which essentially is something most people don't want to be: greedy. When you mix the two, it's a large amount of entitlement you've subjected to and it may be unnerving.
My theory on other people is that it portrays vulnerability. Basic survival instinct is to eat, seeing people -especially ones who eat fast or grubby- eat is baring some sort of desperation only shown when people eat. All the complexities of humans evolutionary traits are banished as soon as they got into 'survival mode' and start eating. There is an unexplainable look of desperation I see. I hate it.
I get it when I see strangers, acquaintances or people who I don't like doing it. Same applies when I am eating, I don't like it as I feel vulnerable.
I was physically and emotionally abused as a child, always very fit but always got called overweight. But I significantly remember this anxiety happening soon after my part-time job at McDonald's, a memory that was minute but stayed with me.
I was sitting in the crew room eating lunch as I'd just started my break. My manager came in and said "Stop stuffing your faces and start working" I was honestly mortified. I think you should just think back, really hard, on all the things that could have started this. The mind works in very, very mysterious ways. For someone to say this isn't normal and doesn't have a degree in cognitive function shouldn't really have a say.
Seeing people eat makes me cry.
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I am writing back to this because I have currently been crying for two hours straight because I saw my roommate eating. I hate my roommate, and to see someone who I hate , eating is confronting for me. I've been like this for a while, if people confront me while I'm eating it's the worst feeling in the world.
First off, I know I personally associate food with greed. Which essentially is something most people don't want to be: greedy. When you mix the two, it's a large amount of entitlement you've subjected to and it may be unnerving.
My theory on other people is that it portrays vulnerability. Basic survival instinct is to eat, seeing people -especially ones who eat fast or grubby- eat is baring some sort of desperation only shown when people eat. All the complexities of humans evolutionary traits are banished as soon as they got into 'survival mode' and start eating. There is an unexplainable look of desperation I see. I hate it.
I get it when I see strangers, acquaintances or people who I don't like doing it. Same applies when I am eating, I don't like it as I feel vulnerable.
I was physically and emotionally abused as a child, always very fit but always got called overweight. But I significantly remember this anxiety happening soon after my part-time job at McDonald's, a memory that was minute but stayed with me.
I was sitting in the crew room eating lunch as I'd just started my break. My manager came in and said "Stop stuffing your faces and start working" I was honestly mortified. I think you should just think back, really hard, on all the things that could have started this. The mind works in very, very mysterious ways. For someone to say this isn't normal and doesn't have a degree in cognitive function shouldn't really have a say.