Secluded
Some days i just dont even wanna leave my room, i'm 19 and feel like my social life has already diminished i've always been on the skinny side, people are too busy criticizing 'obese' people they forget about us, But people being cold and ignorant as they usually are will always look at your flaws no matter what eventually when fat people are enough to look at and feel good about themselves its us the 'skinny people', I mean i know i'm skinny i'm not retarded people 'close' to me know i eat but still every day they make me feel like i'm ugly i know i'm not ugly but i know i'm not exactly a healthy weight either, trust me if i could change it easily i would..being skinny is just as hard as being obese some people just dont gain weight quick like others and yes we get down and depressed also i dont know what gives people the audacity to say there 'normal' and give them the right to critique others where not all perfect no matter how conceited some are, i'm so scared of going out there starting again finding real friends because i'm in an environment where i never feel good about myself i feel like nothing will change and i'm so sick of the same un-original words of advise, 'your young there is plenty of time'...'eat more work out you'll eventually gain weight' some days i just want to fall into a black whole and never come out i dont want to die but i dont feel alive i want to change but i feel beat down i dont wanna go this way i dont want to let people critique me i want to be able to say..yes i'm skinny and i eat so how about you mind your damn business you piece of sh*t. its hard to know here (the internet) is the only place i can say what i want and not be looked at like i'm in denial, i'm in denial i know i'm skinny like i said but i dont need some dumbass to point it out either...so please next time to criticize someone just know that some people do listen and it does hurt and no matter how hard they block it out it builds up God gave us all life we came into this world the same way were all going to go the same way dont ever hurt a persons feelings.