Rely on internet for summer
Ever since the end of my senior year, one years ago (summer of 09) I realized I wasn't living the "highschool life" of partying all the time and going on a senior trip with my friends. I realized that through out my four years at highschool I didnt make close friends. I mean I knew a lot of people, but I never had that friend that would come over all the time. I used to have a lot of close friends from about kindergarden to seventh grade, but after that I dont know what happened. Anyways, I realized that I didnt go on any senior trips and I was bored so I started joining websites like stickam and omgpop to get to know knew people. After a while I started to talk to people online and I even made a made up identity. Wierd I know, but anyways I went into college forgot all this and now this summer again it started fairly well until I had nothing to do again so I went back to these sights and started talking to people online again. I find this fairly wierd, but yet again I have nothing to do so I keep on doing it. I consider myself a fairly normal person besides my internet side of me, which sometimes creeps me out and I can't believe I've done what I've done but besides that I was just wondering if anyone else has faced the same thing. I feel like i'm trying to replace real world people with people online. In other words the people I don't have in real life i'm trying to meet online and even at one point seekd for an online girlfriend. I really want to end this bullshit because its fucking wierd and its not me! I can't stop it too some suggestions would help. THanks!