Reality vs. fantasy

Hello, I am 32 years old, and have a life easy now. The problem is when I was growing I was sexually abuse by some family members and other persons. Now that doesn’t bother me, I had my moments of depression and pain, but at this day I am a happy mother, wife and woman... well in the woman part I am having a little of problems. Why? I don't see the monogamy like something good for me, and I am having problems controlling my urges in that direction. For other part I recently have found in the S&M thematic some characteristics that describe me, and some excitement heating my blood.
I think my happiness is in being a sadist or masochist at some extens, but I don't have idea of the phat to fallow. Im trying to talk to people that live free and enjoying their lifes in the world of S&M, or doing some test to verify wich path is the one to fallow.
Thanks to all of you who read this.
PS. I dont have problems whit my past, I have a book in spanish about it. And have a little more of my way of thinking.

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    Hello! Sometimes it is difficult for one to come to grips with their desires to be dominated, humilated, bound, etc. Society tells us this is wrong - well, there is nothing wrong or abnormal for consenting adults to delve into the BDSM lifestyle. Initially, I also questioned my need to be a masochist/submissive, and considered myself 'weird', thus preventing me from total sexuell fulfillment. There are many helpful websites that cater to those new to BDSM. Good luck, and I hope you a positive journey

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