You are suffering from dissillusion and boredom. Sorry to tell you that your over-analysis of reality seems to have carved multiple paths of neurotic loops in your mind to the point where they actually feed on each other.
This is not permanent, but you seem to be in pretty deep so I'm going to give you a few tips.
-Change your scenery. Save up a bit of money and get out of town. Just pick a place where there is demand for work and go. You can finish school anytime, but right now your universe is a choking rutt and your are feeding it's power over you like Golum and his precious ring. So go for a fresh start. You'll be to busy keeping a roof over your head and food in your belly to be skulking around looking for answers to questions that no living person today could ever hope to give a definitive answer too.
-You are just as vain and pathetic as everyone else, but you seem like an interesting and smart person. Just rest assured that there are lots of people out there with whom you have enough likeness not to want to hurt them or yourself.
-Oh yeah, if you smoke weed or do other illicit drugs, I'd recomend laying off for the simple reason that it doesn't seem to be helping.
Pure hatred, crippling sadness and dying hope
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You are suffering from dissillusion and boredom. Sorry to tell you that your over-analysis of reality seems to have carved multiple paths of neurotic loops in your mind to the point where they actually feed on each other.
This is not permanent, but you seem to be in pretty deep so I'm going to give you a few tips.
-Change your scenery. Save up a bit of money and get out of town. Just pick a place where there is demand for work and go. You can finish school anytime, but right now your universe is a choking rutt and your are feeding it's power over you like Golum and his precious ring. So go for a fresh start. You'll be to busy keeping a roof over your head and food in your belly to be skulking around looking for answers to questions that no living person today could ever hope to give a definitive answer too.
-You are just as vain and pathetic as everyone else, but you seem like an interesting and smart person. Just rest assured that there are lots of people out there with whom you have enough likeness not to want to hurt them or yourself.
-Oh yeah, if you smoke weed or do other illicit drugs, I'd recomend laying off for the simple reason that it doesn't seem to be helping.