The same thing happened to me. I used to be funny and quick witted. I smoked a lot of pot for 3 years. My friend had this RooR bong and I'd take the most massive rips and I'd get the most incredible highs. People say it's safe to drive on pot obviously is not that high. I was in another world kind of high. Everything I did, I was so intensely into it when I was high. After about a couple of months, I started disconnecting from everything and I couldn't socialize anymore. I remember this span of a couple of months where I all of the sudden felt empty and dead around everyone. I stopped smoking for 5 years now and I still feel empty and dead around everyone. It's the worst thing that's happened to me.
I don't think I turned stupid either. I still finished my masters degree in neural engineering. But I have no personality at all. I have no coherent identity. There's nothing that I really identify with that I feel is me, and hence I'm always thinking different perspectives trying to work that out and it's paralyzing. Also my memory went to shit, a lot of times in the middle of saying a phrase, I would suddenly not be able to think of a word. I end up talking all slow. A lot of people told me that I sound retarded and I'm not surprised, most people just avoid me after talking to me one or two times.
It's hurt me incredibly professionally as well. It's incredibly debilitating.
pot killed my personality
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The same thing happened to me. I used to be funny and quick witted. I smoked a lot of pot for 3 years. My friend had this RooR bong and I'd take the most massive rips and I'd get the most incredible highs. People say it's safe to drive on pot obviously is not that high. I was in another world kind of high. Everything I did, I was so intensely into it when I was high. After about a couple of months, I started disconnecting from everything and I couldn't socialize anymore. I remember this span of a couple of months where I all of the sudden felt empty and dead around everyone. I stopped smoking for 5 years now and I still feel empty and dead around everyone. It's the worst thing that's happened to me.
I don't think I turned stupid either. I still finished my masters degree in neural engineering. But I have no personality at all. I have no coherent identity. There's nothing that I really identify with that I feel is me, and hence I'm always thinking different perspectives trying to work that out and it's paralyzing. Also my memory went to shit, a lot of times in the middle of saying a phrase, I would suddenly not be able to think of a word. I end up talking all slow. A lot of people told me that I sound retarded and I'm not surprised, most people just avoid me after talking to me one or two times.
It's hurt me incredibly professionally as well. It's incredibly debilitating.