For the last year and a half i've been smoking weed about 3 times a week (i'd like to think, on average). I've always been intelligent, and i got straight a*s at gcse and in the january exams this year got really high grades at AS level (a few 100%s and the rest close). However, i feel so much less sharp than i used to be. I feel much less intelligent, and incredibly less socially interactive and able to form a conversation.
My music teacher said to me "Your alertness and upbeatness in conversation was something i always admired and respected. I'm not sure where it's gone". This really dug deep and confirmed my fears over the last few months. I used to have a lot of common sense, being able to speak to people regardless if i knew them or not. I even had a driving lesson today and my instructor confirmed that i need to use my brain outside of school studies. As in, use your brain and get some common sense!
I find it hard to socialise, i get nervous going into my 6th form common room and talking to other people in my year. With friends i meet up with (who i don't go to school with), we may talk for a while but then break into silence, and i don't know where to start or pick up the conversation from. I feel like my mind has been numbed and i can't think clearly anymore when it comes to a simply task of "communicating".
I am good at regurgitating information from books (nowhere near as good as i used to be), but am hoping to get into Oxford or Cambridge university, and seriously doubt what i am capable of now. In interview, i might just fumble and not know anything. I've really cut back on weed recently, smoking a small joint once a week or something. But i know i need to stop. i want to change, i want to be my normal self again. i even feel like i'm becoming more depressed as i separate myself from social life. I'm glad some people feel some of the same things that i am going through. But i think that i need some help getting through, and some understanding people to support me.
im going through the same thing, im waiting, hoping for my sharp senses again, to get rid of this numb dumb thing. i hate it, and i feel like i screwed up big time. it hurts more when people say that youve changed and yatta yatta.
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For the last year and a half i've been smoking weed about 3 times a week (i'd like to think, on average). I've always been intelligent, and i got straight a*s at gcse and in the january exams this year got really high grades at AS level (a few 100%s and the rest close). However, i feel so much less sharp than i used to be. I feel much less intelligent, and incredibly less socially interactive and able to form a conversation.
My music teacher said to me "Your alertness and upbeatness in conversation was something i always admired and respected. I'm not sure where it's gone". This really dug deep and confirmed my fears over the last few months. I used to have a lot of common sense, being able to speak to people regardless if i knew them or not. I even had a driving lesson today and my instructor confirmed that i need to use my brain outside of school studies. As in, use your brain and get some common sense!
I find it hard to socialise, i get nervous going into my 6th form common room and talking to other people in my year. With friends i meet up with (who i don't go to school with), we may talk for a while but then break into silence, and i don't know where to start or pick up the conversation from. I feel like my mind has been numbed and i can't think clearly anymore when it comes to a simply task of "communicating".
I am good at regurgitating information from books (nowhere near as good as i used to be), but am hoping to get into Oxford or Cambridge university, and seriously doubt what i am capable of now. In interview, i might just fumble and not know anything. I've really cut back on weed recently, smoking a small joint once a week or something. But i know i need to stop. i want to change, i want to be my normal self again. i even feel like i'm becoming more depressed as i separate myself from social life. I'm glad some people feel some of the same things that i am going through. But i think that i need some help getting through, and some understanding people to support me.
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im going through the same thing, im waiting, hoping for my sharp senses again, to get rid of this numb dumb thing. i hate it, and i feel like i screwed up big time. it hurts more when people say that youve changed and yatta yatta.