Please help me out

May 1, 2021, 6:30pm
Lately I've had these terrible mood
swings. One day I'll be so hyper, so happy, that I could cry. The next day I'll be so depressed and angry that I could cry.

Right now, I just left a party I was attending with my sister. She was getting along with the other people there and drifted away from me. I was already bored, so I was asking her if we could leave. She wanted to stay, as she wanted something interesting to happen, but I just wasn't havin' it.

I left the party and just cried my eyes out 15 minutes ago.

I feel like I keep ruining everything; for myself, and my sister. She's been extremely understanding of it in the past though, but I just feel bad. I also feel like I'm robbing myself of my own enjoyment of events, like parties.

When I'm like this, I become even more sad, because I'm sad. I just need advise, or at least affirmations. I think I just need a hug, or a "You're alright, everything's okay. You didn't ruin anything for anyone. I'm here for you."

-Chap

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  • Several approaches. Better diet with little sugar and processed foods. More exercise and little tv. Talk with a therapist or a friend who will listen.

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  • You sound bipolar, dude. There's meds that can help; good luck!

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    • [OP] Even if I had it, I grew up thinkin' I had all sorts of stuff that I didn't [because of misinformation], so when I'd tell my mom she'd make me feel like I could never have anything wrong with me ever. I'll only ever get diagnosed with a mental disorder [if I have one] when I'm an adult, or when she realizes I have a serious problem.

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  • BPD?

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    • [OP] Even if I had it, I grew up thinkin' I had all sorts of stuff that I didn't [because of misinformation], so when I'd tell my mom she'd make me feel like I could never have anything wrong with me ever. I'll only ever get diagnosed with a mental disorder [if I have one] when I'm an adult, or when she realizes I have a serious problem.

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  • My sister has a resentment against me from when we were young adults, because she said I would never want to leave wherever we were partying, and if I agreed to leave I'd say, "I'm sorry I have to leave because my sister wants to go home". My sister would get mad, because she expected me not blame her, and or she always thought that if I said that I had to leave, because she wanted to go home that it would make her look lame. To tell you the truth I really don't care about her resentment, because I always felt like she was ruining my fun. A lot of times I prefer not to go places with other people, or simply just drive myself, and go alone. I guess I'm a jerk, but I don't really care.

    I think it's great when people can come, and go independently of others.

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  • I have a similar issue with low mood, and anxiety; I’ve started trying to ground myself in these moments which may help (if you don’t already do this). For instance bringing yourself back to the moment by noting 4 things in the room, breathing exercises, keeping a journal to track your tiggers, and so forth. And, definitely feel confident in ditching a party you’re not enjoying - good luck!

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  • All I want is some advise er affirmations, please.

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  • [OP] I just really feel as if I'm missing out. Like I'm gonna regret leaving ta cry. But, I dunno.

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    • If you were spending the whole time feeling bored and wanting to cry it wasn’t worth staying. Parties are meant to be enjoyable that’s the whole point. There’s nothing wrong with doing what’s right for you, just make yourself a cup of tea, you’ll be ok.

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      • [OP] Thank you so much. You don't know what some of these comments mean to me

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        • You will get through tonight. It was just a party, in 5 years time it won’t matter at all.

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          • Itxs not even just that, I just keep feelin' bad bout stuff. Like just wanting to cry because I thought of some miniscule thing. Happens the other way around too.

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