Probably since you always were cared for and got what you wanted and needed, you weren't able to really appreciate things or even yourself. It seems you feel worthless because you haven't ever really done anything on your own, for yourself. You don't respect yourself, that's why you don't respect others. You've always had others to use so you do. The drugs are a way to hide, cover up, or not confront these issues and probably more. I've been there, done it, and didn't even realize many times why I was so upset and hated life. Sometimes you just have to confront it all and figure out what you really want in life. It's so much more fun if you enjoy it and have a real reason for living. Think back when you were younger, before drugs, when you actually enjoyed life and your family. Your family loves you and I think somewhere deep down, you love them too. ( You may not like them tho!)Hopefully there was a time when you enjoyed what you did- a sport, school activity, music, art, or whatever-and you'll figure out what your true passion is. I'm close to 30, had the good times and bad, did the drugs when I was sad, when I was letting issues of my past control my life and cloud what I truly wanted. It took me time, hurting people and being hurt to start to understand all my emotions. With meditation and prayer (no, I'm not religious)I realized more and more my true passions, stuff I wanted and reason to live. I'm just now figuring out what I really want in life and am working hard for it. That makes me proud of myself and my life worth living.
People walk away from this normal right?
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Probably since you always were cared for and got what you wanted and needed, you weren't able to really appreciate things or even yourself. It seems you feel worthless because you haven't ever really done anything on your own, for yourself. You don't respect yourself, that's why you don't respect others. You've always had others to use so you do. The drugs are a way to hide, cover up, or not confront these issues and probably more. I've been there, done it, and didn't even realize many times why I was so upset and hated life. Sometimes you just have to confront it all and figure out what you really want in life. It's so much more fun if you enjoy it and have a real reason for living. Think back when you were younger, before drugs, when you actually enjoyed life and your family. Your family loves you and I think somewhere deep down, you love them too. ( You may not like them tho!)Hopefully there was a time when you enjoyed what you did- a sport, school activity, music, art, or whatever-and you'll figure out what your true passion is. I'm close to 30, had the good times and bad, did the drugs when I was sad, when I was letting issues of my past control my life and cloud what I truly wanted. It took me time, hurting people and being hurt to start to understand all my emotions. With meditation and prayer (no, I'm not religious)I realized more and more my true passions, stuff I wanted and reason to live. I'm just now figuring out what I really want in life and am working hard for it. That makes me proud of myself and my life worth living.