People are watching me

you are not alone and now i know im not either Thank you!

I so relieved im not alone, the Exact same thing happens to me and I really wanna stop this. I wonder if you have anxiety or something like I do. I get super nervous around people sometimes and i feel like everybody is judging me when Im around them. Thats probably why when Im completely alone I feel as if people are judging me. This really sucks man, sometimes it even stops me to do stuff I wanna do bc I feel embarrassed. Im talking about dancing and I SUCK at it. I also relate to the part about trying to impress someone who isn't even there. I have never admitted to this and I have never told anybody either so knowing that I'm not alone really warms my heart.

Your experiences can cast a long shadow on your life. Exploring those judgements and doubts can be one of the most difficult things you ever do. You're not alone, you're trying to make sense of it - but also recognizing you carry it with you. This is the core of what many people with a past struggle with. The worst is realizing that in your head, it's just you and the words you chose to carry, even when they didn't make sense. Find the root and you'll be ready to handle it, whatever that looks like for you.

First, I am sure you're not unique. I also very much doubt if you're suffering from some sort of mental illness.

Most people have a conscience: a little voice in our heads that judges our actions and speech. It sounds like yours is particularly loud, harsh and demanding.

I wonder if you were raised by parents with very definite ideas of what is right and wrong? Did they demand very high standards of performance and behavior from you?

The conscience is a set of values which we learned as young children. We internalize these to such an extent that they become part of who we are. Sometimes, those values are in conflict with human urges. Then there's an internal clash and life can become very difficult.

Frankly, I think you are far too much inside your own head. I can understand why this distresses you, but I think it's one of those situations where, the more you think about it, the more you think about it.

Is there a time or an activity when you feel free of the critical observer? If so, maybe you can think about why that is and what it says about the nature and source of the critic.

Like I've said, I don't think you're mentally ill, but if this is causing problems in how you deal with life, you would be wise to seek professional help.

I don't think what you're describing is normal, but you're certainly not alone. I don't care how much some people may complain about the foolishness and trolls that abound on IIN, but seriously... thank God for this site! You are certainly not alone. I think it's important for people to know that they're not alone in their internal life struggles.

Sometimes my inner voice used to sound like Craig Ferguson. I would walk around Target by myself at all hours while my inner voice was all Craigy Ferg in my head.