Overly obsessed with a certain person? i think i'm slowly turning mad

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I am a hopeless creative. Stories of people being obsessed with their ex-es or things like that are pretty common. There are also people who obsess over their internet crushes. Instagram stalkers and what-not.

But what I'm dealing with is concerning. I know stalking is not right. I know obsessing over something is not right. I'm perfectly aware that these things are not perfectly 'ethic'-al, or even socially acceptable in the first place.
But I can't help it.

Say there's this person whom you find extremely attractive. You take screenshots of their social media, stuff like that. But then start thinking "I couldn't possibly have someone like them," and the like. You start fantasizing about things that would never happen. You start dreaming about them. You think about them more and more to the point where, I...

Can't. Help. But. DRAW.
So many pictures. All the same subject. More-over, I keep talking to myself, loudly. I contain myself in my room drawing more and more pictures of her. Everything I do and create, in my mind, it's for her. And here's hoping she'll never know what I do, because I, am seriously pissed at myself, for not being able to control this behaviour.

Here's hoping someone could shed a light for me to reality.
Thank you in advance.

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  • IcecreamDogs
    6 years ago

    Interesting. I've fallen hopelessly in love with someone as well.

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  • MrSickboy
    6 years ago

    Omg NO you are NO crazy... you just love this person very intensely... but you know she is special and you don't want to let go of what love you've found. Everybody reacts to love differently. But what you are describing, I relate to very much. Before I go on, I do want to mention that obsessing over somehting/someone isn't always bad or wrong. Sometimes an obsession can actually be healthy as long as you maintain it. So while this girl might be on your mind over 90% of the time, I'm sure you do other things, like go for walks, drive around with a friend, watch TV, etc. That's a healthy obsession. If she makes you lose control of your everyday life, then it's not a normal obsession.
    But I am here to tell you that what you feel for this girl inside is very normal, and I'm the same way being a girl myself for another man. I am a hopeless romantic. And I'm very creative as well. When I'm not writing a song for this man I can never be with, then I'm writing long, provocative,lustful stories about him. And if I'm not writing about him, then I'm drawing nudes of him left and right- giving my interpretation of what I think he looks like below the waist! My art is always geared towards him. He drives me, he's what sparks the creative spirit in me. I find that when he is not the subject of my art, then I loose interest pretty rapidly. I'm always creating something for him. Fuck, I've even written a love letter to him. And he did read it *embarrassed*
    So I really understand where you're coming from. I frequently believe that I will NEVER come across a man even remotely as close and special to him. It's devastating because I cannot have him, but dreaming about him, pretending sex with him and what not is just too harmless and fun. By the way, I also talk to myself SO LOUDLY when I'm in my bedroom alone. Even when I'm not being creative, I just sit on the bed and have a conversation about him. I think creative minds like ours are always looking for a way to add color and stimulation into our lives, and love can take such a huge chuck of this out of us. It's overwhelming and sometimes you jsut don't know what to do.
    But my advice to you is to just keep doing what you love. Keep making that art about her. Art is beautiful, and I'm sure this you girl you love very much is, too. As long as you are ENJOYING what you're making for her, and how you feel about her, keep going on. Love is confusing, and so are our feelings. But if you are constantly frustrated becuase of how she makes you feel, then you might want to consider meditating- a way to clear yo mind of all the clutter and get your life back on track. I don't meditate often, but I find that when I do, it brings me a sense of calmness and purity... no confusion of love to break me down.

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  • HammondWurlitzerRhodes
    6 years ago

    I will take everyone's opinion into account, thank you very much.

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  • RoseIsabella
    6 years ago

    Well, at least you have a creative outlet with your drawing, but don't bother her.

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    • The_Loitering_Creep
      6 years ago

      Shouldn't the OP consider becoming a creep? Nice creeps like me, have minimal social impact; we are polite and relatable. And, there is a key misunderstanding about us. People think we can't get laid because we are creepy. Actually, our behavior is an effective defense against the pain of our unfulfilled sex lives. Like me, the OP is probably too ugly to fuck. He has terrible pain to work thru, but not to worry. Light is at the end of the tunnel. It's kind of creepy.

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      • RoseIsabella
        6 years ago

        Hahaha.

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  • Ellenna
    6 years ago

    You're obviously very obsessive: get yourself some therapy

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  • Coma15Grey
    6 years ago

    I can’t tell if it's normal. I used to be obsessed with one person. I become obsessed with people, maybe not draw them, but I want to know everything about them, I can’t stop thinking about them and all, but then there's realization that it doesn't make sense and I should stop. You should do something else, take your mind off the drug this person is, because if you have no chance then you'll only hurt.

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