Opinions of my music
I have been a musician since I was a child but was never very successful doing it.
I have been diagnosed with asperger's and other mental health issues and seem to have savant abilities in music but I also am aware that I seem to lack social and emotional awareness and recently realized I also lack spiritual awareness as I was an atheist and didn't actually believe in that stuff until recently.
People have claimed I am really good at creating songs but my band seems very unpopular.
Things people have said is my music lacks emotion and soul and is random and unlistenable, which I don't really see myself.
My band seems to be banned from most local venues and places and I don't have many friends and no support from the music industry or radio but I was never sure why.
People have said the songs are offensive but with other stuff that is popular I never got that because none of the songs are vulgar or have themes of what I feel is immoral behavior and I definitely do not fit into the sex drugs and rock n roll theme and personally have very conservative morals.
There are no themes of Satan or religion either although people seem to think that and the death metal crowd also doesn't seem to be into it.
However what I am aware of is my lyrics are completely devastating topics that I wrote in a jokingly way that doesnt tell the exact story but are written in a metaphoric way other people could apply them to their own situation and pretty music all the songs are based off personal traumatic events while poking fun at them.
I told the producer one of the songs was about a best friend who killed himself to spite his wife and he said I shouldn't tell people what the songs are actually about.
So I am curious what people actually think about these songs and there are just 4 here but I'd like honest opinions and I'm not somebody who gets offended but I've been writing songs that only a few people like and they are usually people who have been through similar things but seems to be unliked by most people and I never got why before.