Offensive fetish...
I have a Judaism fetish.
Everything about Judaism,... Rabbis, kippahs, circumcisions, Yiddish, the stereotypical noses... I just get really turned on by all of that. Even to the point of where if I find out a guy is Jewish, it automatically makes them more attractive.
That in itself is something I'm ashamed of, and the second part is something I hate myself for...
Along with that I have a dominatrix complex, in which I would like to dress up as a Nazi and just beat up a Jewish guy and then have sex with him...
I research WW2 Germany even when school is out, and I know almost everything about it. And as sick and twisted as it is, I get turned on by that. Some of it's almost necrophiliac...
Just, I hate myself for this. I'd love closure, but I know I'll never get it.