Obsession of death

When a woman is expecting a baby and she is near her time she goes through a period we call nesting when she prepares for the coming of the new baby. Well that's what it is like for me preparing for my death. I'm not afraid of death as such but hate the thought of no being there anymore. I hate leaving everyone and everything I have known. But I find more and more that I am getting my house in order and sorting things out. When all this is done will I just die instead of sitting back and e enjoying old age.?