Non conformity disgusts me

I studied conformity and these groups, like "hippie", "goth", "emo", "potheads", etc are not quirky and if you follow any of these groups you're not unique, and you're not non-conformist. Non-conformists don't do these or any popular things, they're weird people who are told, "you're not a hippie, you're a freak!", therefore freak is defined as markedly abnormal or unusual, and these groups want people to think they're freaks, freak implies you're so individual you're not even an individual, you're just yourself, one of a kind, and people told me "you're not a hippie, you're one of a kind, you're just unique" when what they really want to say is "you're just a weird, long hair freak on drugs!".